I have already changed my mindset somewhat when it comes to comparing myself to those who are living their dreams; instead I have chosen to let those people be my inspiration and motivation to make myself focus on myself and not comparing me to them. I've been scared most of the time since I lost my way, not daring to take chances, not daring to take risks. I was not confident in myself nor was I sure of where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. I will probably never grow out of the fact that I am a dreamer, but perhaps I can learn not to get stuck in my visions of what I would love to happen one day; instead I want to be in the dream of right now and learn how to live to my fullest where I am. Trying to be as satisfied as I can with what I have right now.
I already know the first thing I need to do and that is what I have been working with the most recently. Which is to get a new job, for I cannot spend what little energy I have left after eight hours at work on what I want; when I barely have enough to keep the apartment clean and cook food for myself.