I'm also in the process of putting my apartment in the pre-selling-stage - or what we should call it. I haven't mentioned it here fully ... But since I dealt with the pain in my neck and the job-issues and those things finally calmed down. I started to realize more and more, oh well, I realized it even during the spring last year (so it was even during the time my neck was bad and my job issues were bad) ... However, it wasn't until last autumn I accepted the truth.
I love my apartment and my closest neighbors so much, the area looks beautiful and is quite nice. Despite those feelings, this is not the right place for me. The energies in the nature around here feels off for me, it's only one tiny spot that I've found it to be nice so far. And I am afraid of going out once it's dark (yes, I'm odd, I've no problems walking around after the dark out on the countryside or in the forest, but I do here in the city - it's far more people here that are quite ... Aggressive ...) and feel uncomfortable going out after I get home from work due to some people living here ... Which is bad for me, since I'm a person who needs to be able to go out and take a walk in the forest whenever I feel like it. I need the closeness of nature. It's my energy source when mine's run low and I'm by no means a city person. I feel so suffocated here and I need to get out to the countryside to a small house in the middle of nowhere with lots of nature close to me.
Which is why I decided to put up my apartment in the pre-selling stage to see if anyone would be interested in it. Though, I haven't found nor bought a new place to call "home" yet ... And truthfully, I may have to wait until I'm completely sure that I get to keep my job.
So now you know, at least a little, of why I went quiet again. I simply need my time alone when I'm not feeling completely okay. I shall at least try to cure my feeling of being suffocated this upcoming weekend by heading out for a long hiking trip in the forest. I'm thinking about following the trail to the village where my parents live, it's supposed to be a cottage there that you can sleep in. So I'm hoping for it to be free so I can use it to stay the night there.