Which is not very pleasing to think about ... And no one at work even listened that I need other things to do while at work and I can't keep cleaning since it's putting a strain on my damaged neck. So it's partly because of that the program I'm undergoing isn't doing any good for me. In turns I'm trying to get a new job ...
But the thing is. I have no clue what to work with if I can't be a gardener either. Right now being a gardener is all I want to do for a living, but if my neck can't handle that either ... Then I'm pretty much out of options with what I should work as. I can't sit still for too long. Partly because of my neck and partly because symptoms like those with ADHD and simply cannot stay put for long periods of times.
So yeah, all in all, I feel very lost and depressed atm ... So I apologize if the art I may make in this near future is very ... Dark. But darkness is none other than me right now. For I have had thoughts that hadn't crossed my mind for the past 15 years of my life. The darkest thoughts I ever had has returned.
For you who couldn't tell it before today, but I'm a purple freak and loves purple so much and love to work with it in various ways.